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Verse 1

Robotic, hypnotic

Robotic, hypnotic

Lost in the static

I am your regret

I’ll make you forget

All you were made to be

If you’re not careful

I will control you

And distort your dreams

Robotic, hypnotic



I never want you to know

You were made for perfection

Not created defective

On this mechanical planet

You were not meant to be

Just some broken machine

On this mechanical planet

Verse 2

So I’ll distract you

I will attack you

And keep you focused on me

I’ll make you fall in love with deception

You won’t know what to believe

Robotic, hypnotic

Lost in the static



The truth is

I’ll work day and night

To keep the gears grinding in your mind

To keep you from knowing you are worth more than gold

Not some assembly-line, rusted shell of a person that I try to remote-control

I never want you to believe

That when you’re down on your knees

That someone is actually listening

If you are undistracted for even a moment

I’ll lose my hold

And you would notice that you have never been alone

Never have you ever fought alone

Never have you ever fought alone

— ”Mechanical Planet” by Veridia

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Jung Type Descriptions: INFP


creative, smart, idealist, loner, attracted to sad things, disorganized, avoidant, can be overwhelmed by unpleasant feelings, prone to quitting, prone to feelings of loneliness, ambivalent of the rules, solitary, daydreams about people to maintain a sense of closeness, focus on fantasies, acts…

I’m INFJ/P (<1% preference between J and P). The traits above the fold here are super accurate. (If you follow the link, some of the others start to drift off though.) Some highlights:

idealist: results in my perfectionism

loner: somewhat less so than I used to be, but still definitely true.

attracted to sad things: So much yes. For example, my favorite way for a story to end is for the protagonist to sacrifice him or herself. Kind of twisted maybe. Sorrow is strangely beautiful.

avoidant: When I screw up, I’ll own up immediately if I know I can’t evade it, but otherwise I’ll avoid it.

can be overwhelmed by unpleasant feelings: ohhhh yeah

prone to quitting: If I stumble a little bit in something, in my mind it turns into a slippery slope. I convince myself I’m probably going to fail, so why bother?

prone to feelings of loneliness: Even with my closest friends, I usually have a hard time admitting things and talking about how I feel. It makes it easy to feel isolated even with people who love me. More than anything, I want someone in whom I would confide everything. They’d have to be gentle enough that it felt safe, but strong and forceful enough to pry me out from behind the walls I put up. They’d have to be able to handle the things they found there.

daydreams about people to maintain a sense of closeness: a lot

focus on fantasies: this should be its own post

(Source:, via soapthief)


I’m not very good at comforting people. When I speak or write, I’m really concise and technical. And no matter how hard I try, I can’t find words when a friend needs to be encouraged or comforted. If the source of their tears, or their panic attack, or their weariness isn’t something I can fix, I’m at a loss. I don’t know what to do, other than just be with them and hope that sitting with them conveys what I feel. I have to hope that they understand that I love them, that I desperately want them to feel better. I have to hope that’s enough.

The problem is, what do I do when I can’t even sit with them? My friends are hurting, and I feel like I should be there for them. What do I do?

"Young people, I’m writing to you
because you are strong.
God’s word lives in you.
You have won the battle over the evil one."

John the apostle



drawing facebook friends. part 2

Thanks Skye for the new profile pic!


I don’t want to be a monster; I want to love.

I don’t want to be a loser; I want to be useful.

The combination of love and usefulness is helpfulness.

I want to be helpful.


Somewhere between the hot and the cold

Somewhere between the new and the old

Somewhere between who I am and who I used to be

Somewhere in the middle you’ll find me

Somewhere between the wrong and the right

Somewhere between the darkness and the light

Somewhere between who I was and who you’re making me

Somewhere in the middle you’ll find me

Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender

'Cause I'm losing all control

Fearless warriors in a picket fence

Reckless abandon wrapped in common sense

Deep-water faith in the shallow end

We are caught in the middle

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Welcome to the New

We have been made right with God because of our faith. Now we have peace with him because of our Lord Jesus Christ. Through faith in Jesus we have received God’s grace. In that grace we stand. We are full of joy because we expect to share in God’s glory. (Romans 5:1–2)

I’ve been listening the last few days to MercyMe’s latest album, Welcome to the New. It’s just track after track of rejoicing over God’s grace, and it’s absolutely amazing. Their lead singer, Bart Millard, has really gone through a massive transformation since their last album after a couple of his close friends helped him discover the peace and joy of grace that he had been missing for years (see his post linked below). It’s just so apparent in the music and so encouraging. One of my favorite choruses is from “Dear Younger Me:”

You are holy
You are righteous
You are one of the redeemed
Set apart a brand new heart
You are free indeed

^click for Spotify player with the album


My Identity in Jesus Christ

John 1:12 - I am a child of God (Romans 8:16).

John 15:1,5 - I am a part of the true vine, a channel (branch) of His Life.

John 15:15 - I am Christ’s friend.

John 15:16 - I am chosen and appointed by Christ to bear His fruit.

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Whenever someone asks me my opinion about gay people, or people who support abortion, or people who picket funerals, or people of other religions, or transgender people, or overly religious people, I usually say, “You mean what do I think about people?  Well I’m a people too, and we’re all pretty screwed up.  And I think we all need Jesus.”

God loves people.  We’re all invited.  End of story.

— J


(via anordinaryreblog)